Sunday, February 19, 2006
I don’t want to have any thoughts that start with “If Only”, heave sighs of regret, or find myself sobbing over moments ruined and opportunities lost. I want to be as unaffected as possible, to go on living my life as it has always been. I don’t want to let this harden me into someone bitter and cynical; I would rather live with misplaced idealism. It’s difficult to let go and walk away, but sometimes distance can bridge gaps and bring people closer together. As I look back now, I think I’ve sacrificed too much, at the expense of my own happiness. It has become perfectly lucid that I need to do something for myself, and leaving would be the healthiest prescription for me.rachel at 11:36 PM