Thursday, March 02, 2006
翻著我們的照片想念若隱若現
去年的冬天
我們笑得很甜
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sigh, life's been revolving around school these days. after today i've decided that i can't do this anymore - clock 5 hours of sleep most nights the week of a deadline, liberally skip lectures, fall asleep in those i go to, cancel shopping plans on my free day and spend it doing work, not do studying or readings of any sort. after a marathon project meeting that ended at 7ish in the evening i realize that i'm very exhausted when i've been forcing myself to look energetic and cheery. haven't been in the mood, or had the patience, to make chatter, and find myself increasingly short fused.
achey all over right now, every night's a blur of typing away on my laptop till late at night, days go by fast as i doze off in nearly every lecture and go for long draggy meetings. tomorrow i am declaring a self-imposed off day and attempt to book a massage/facial and go for some long overdue retail therapy. though being cooped up trying to do schoolwork has increased my propensity to shop online. i would like also to get an undisturbed 8 hours of sleep.
i'm doing 6 modules this semester, entirely by choice. it is manageable, but things get crazy when you get like 2-3 deadlines a week. but i guess, after the 2 quizzes we've had so far i need to study much harder.
gabriel reminded me that the a level results were out yesterday. a year ago i was "devastated" at coming so close but not getting 4 'A's. in retrospect it doesn't mean much to me anymore. i studied hard because i wanted to do well, get good grades and a scholarship, and because i enjoyed subjects like history and lit. primarily, i was upset because i knew i didn't have a chance at a scholarship and i didn't wanna stay here. now that i know better, results aren't everything, they don't measure a person's worth, and university pretty much levels everyone out.
some downtime is good.
rachel at 10:51 PM